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Thursday, 1 January 2026

For Such a Time as This

 


The true story about my broken back (at 18 years of age), by Ben Bonk ...

January 1st, 1975, I woke up Wednesday morning to see heavy wet snow outside my bedroom window. It wasn’t long till my buddies and I met for breakfast and talked about sledding and the such.
I had to be home by 4 that afternoon because my parents were having many guests over for amazing food and celebrating the new 1975. My parent’s Jesus loving testimony was very well known.
My buddies and myself agreed to see what we can find in the garage/shed at our friend’s house. Something that can be used for sliding down the hills.
I quickly discovered an old lid from a wringer washer machine which I knew would be better than perfect on the snow.
The 4 of us headed to Burnaby Mountain. It’s called a mountain yet it is only about 400 metres in height.
We parked our cars and walked to the snow covered hillside.
The hill that looked perfect would within a few hours bring me to a painful life changing breaking point in my life.
The 4 of us were having a great time with much laughter sliding down that hill.
The top of this hill had a snow covered sidewalk which made an ideal place for us to launch our sliding.
After a couple hours of this fun I couldn’t get my eyes off the primary hill that sloped steeply to the snow covered sidewalk and then continued onto the hill we were sliding down.
My first thought regarding the large hill was ‘what would everyone think of me if I slid down that hill using this washing machine lid.’
So I started walking and slipping while making my way up that hill. Once on top I then realized how high it was. Perhaps a bit too high.
I placed the lid on the edge that I would start from. I yelled several times “GET OUT OF WAY!” to those standing on the sidewalk separating the two hills.
I gave myself a gentle push and within seconds I realized how fast I was going. Plus sliding backwards made this a total out of control disaster.
Sliding uncontrollably I slid into a snow covered embankment which sent me into the air during which the lid I was sliding on left my grip.
I landed backwards on a steel drain grate tailbone first which sent a loud cracking sound to base of my skull. I screamed ‘MY BACK!!’ as I proceeded sliding down the 2nd hill on my now broken back.
I ended up amongst trees and bushes whilst yelling and crying.
My friends arrived and heard me yell ‘MY BACK.’ The pain was explosive. No idea what damage I caused to my back.
While laying on the snow, within my heart I started to scream at God. My anger was a Godless hell filled anger towards God.
My friends seeing me could not hear my rage but they saw my expression and tears.
I blamed God for:
Me being a crippled son for my parents.
Me losing my job.
Me losing my car.
And what will others think of me now.
I didn’t know it then, but
these were my first loves.
I laid in my crippled position on the snow for some time.
This severe pain would not ease up. The only word that would describe my pain would be the word ‘explosion.’
My horrible anger towards God remained as I asked God to be with my parents as they get the news. The news their son would be crippled.
At that very second I was filled completely with God’s love and forgiveness. From the top of my head to the soles of my feet I was filled. And I mean filled!
I then cried and cried and cried and words of repentance gushed from my heart.
My friends standing by me must have thought I was going through more horrible pain.
God’s presence was as real as I was. Very real. His love and forgiveness was complete. Absolutely no room for doubt.
Eventually the ambulance came and I was placed on a spine board.
Even in the ambulance I felt God’s amazing forgiving presence and peace.
We arrived at the Royal Columbian Hospital in New Westminster.
Once I was in my ward my friends came and stood by the front of the bed and talked amongst themselves.
In the bed I could not raise my head nor could I move my legs. These movements would bring horrible piercing pain throughout my body.
I asked my best friend Allen (also a preacher’s kid and currently pastoring a church)to call my dad and tell him what happened. I was supposed to be home by 4.
Eventually I was given painkillers which helped a bit with the pain.
While laying in bed with my eyes partially closed Allen said “John is here.”
John was my dad’s assistant pastor.
Pastor John was a tall very soft spoken man of God. He never spoke thunder but spoke peace and forgiveness.
He asked if he could show my friends my legs. I said yes and he moved the bed sheet up to my knees.
I saw my friends drop their jaws and looked at me and one of them asked me ‘how do you do that?’
I had no idea what he was asking.
John looked at me and said “Ben, your right leg is 7 inches shorter than your left leg.”
At those very words I felt fear. Real fear. In my heart I called to Jesus. That fear was a dark helpless fear. An absolute horrible hopeless feeling.
John then asked if he could pray for me. I said yes and John put his fingers round my right ankle.
He prayed “Jesus, thank you for your faithfulness. Now in the name of Jesus heal Ben’s back.”
Immediately my right leg started to grow. About 4 seconds later the right leg was made normal.
No coaxing and talking, only letting the miracle happen.
Sounds of small cracks and 1 large crack. It happened without pain. Seconds before this the pain was horrible.
I saw the look on my friends faces. 3 jaws just hung opened. 1 friend asked ‘how did you do that?’
John then reset the bed sheet and told me ‘say hi to your dad’ and then he left.
God’s presence never left nor forsook me.
He never condemned me.
Closer than a loving brother.
Within 3-4 weeks I was back at work. During my weeks at home my place of work delivered my 2 pay cheques to my house.
Also gradually throughout the recouping (muscle spasm)days my spirit’s desire was continually being checked in correcting the Ben first idea and gradually into a walk with faith in God.
My complaints to God before my healing:
1:Me being a crippled son for my parents. I CAME HOME HEALED!
2:Me losing my job. I KEPT MY JOB!
3:Me losing my car. I KEPT MY CAR!
4:And what will others think of me. MY WALKING BY FAITH BEGAN!
Even though this happened in 1975 I can still recall as if it were a year ago.
 
Ben😁
Jesus said:
”… And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”
‭‭Matthew‬ ‭28‬:‭20‬ ‭


Saturday, 18 April 2020

Empty Buildings


Earlier today I was thinking about all the massive buildings around our world that are now sitting empty.  As thoughts started to take shape, this poem was created. 

 
Empty Buildings

Where once 
Was love
Laughter
Shoulder to shoulder
Bench touching bench
Peals of screams
At a touchdown
Or basket ball
Falling through a hoop
Loud cheering
At a hockey puck
Reaching a goal

Fans raising hands
Arms waving
Like Palm Sunday
At a rock band
Screaming for more
Going home empty
No better than before

Paying a fortune
For concerts and events
While children have starved
And those on the street
Have fought for their life
With no place to sleep

Empty stadiums
Full wallets
But empty hearts
While hungry beggars
Watched and wondered
What is life really all about?

Empty schools
Devoid of laughter
And art and music
A divine parade of
Little hands holding hands

Devoid of truth
Devoid of God
Divine instruction
And discipline that shows
True caring

Empty churches
Pew after pew
Were these rows filled
To be entertained
Or did they once
Bend a knee in humility to Me?

Church recreation
The new norm
And yet so little prayer
Where is the seeking
Of My holiness
And the cross and the thorn?

Empty marketplaces
Where money spent
Was never enough
The mall stole My Sundays
And now they are silent
And the idols of desire
Collect dust on the shelves

What is life really
But a vapor in time?
God breathed life in you
With a purpose
His purpose
To fulfill you
With His life
He gave to you
On the cross

Empty heart
Filled with things of this world
Let Him come in
And make all things new
Fulfill your life
With His love and pure truth
That’s what this is all about ...

1Jn 2:15  Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him. 
1Jn 2:16  For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world. 
1Jn 2:17  And the world passeth away, and the lust thereof: but he that doeth the will of God abideth for ever. 

Thursday, 9 April 2020

Overcoming the World – Part 2


As I said in yesterday’s blog, several years ago, I wrote and published a book called Victory Over Backsliding.   Backsliding is when you turn away from God (and start living life your own way), even though you were once committed to Him.  In my book, I share my own first-hand experience with it, what I learned from it, and how I came back to the God of my childhood.

Recently, this book about backsliding came to mind, and I feel compelled to share the chapter that talks about the believer’s stand in our present world.  I trust you will feel enlightened and encouraged as you read.  Today’s blog is a little longer, since I don’t want to break up the story, thereby making it choppy.


Chapter 3 – Overcoming the World (see book info below)
 
Beginning of Part 2

Yesterday, we talked about an “evil world system,” led by Satan and his demons. This is different from the planetary world in which we live, work, play, and so on.  This evil system is against all that is good and Godly.  It is a blatant show of pride and shaking a fist at God.  It is behind the most vile and ungodly acts in existence in the world today.  And the best Biblical example is found in the very first chapter in the Bible, the Book of Genesis, the true account of Sodom and Gomorrah. It is remarkable how that same ungodly city resembles our world today.  In fact, so much so, that I have thought many times, this is a prelude to a time of unprecedented judgement on this world, for such lewd and evil perversions provoke and are surely justified by a holy and just God, who created all things for His glory.  There has been no fear of God, and I wonder now, with the dreaded Novel Covid-19 circulating the earth, perhaps people will reach out to God.  Will they come to realize that it is God, and not science and good behavior, that will deliver us from this insidious virus, and the financial ruin, etc. that seems to be looming ahead, threatening our very existence?

In the following we have an excellent Biblical example of what happens when we get too involved in the evil world system.

Choosing the World

            Imagine a beautiful prosperous city, situated near the banks of the Euphrates, a large metropolis, rich in commerce and a notable political power.  A marine port of Babylonia, Ur was a happening city, trading goods with India, Ethiopia and Egypt.  Inhabited by Chaldees, people of Babylon, Ur was ruled by a king that took pride in the building of the temple in honor of the Babylonian moon-god, Sin.  A neighboring city, Haran, shared in the worship of this god, Sin.  Abraham, a wealthy, but godly man, enjoying modern life in suburbia Ur, moved with his entire family from Ur to Haran and lived there in the land of Canaan.  Life was good and Abraham enjoyed the company of his close-knit family. But, one day Abraham received a strange directive from God Himself.
 
            The Lord said to Abram, “Leave your country, your people and your father's household and go to the land I will show you. I will make you into a great nation and I will bless you; I will make your name great, and you will be a blessing. I will bless those who bless you, and whoever curses you I will curse; and all peoples on earth will be blessed through you.”  Genesis 12:1-3 NIV

What was the Lord asking?  To leave the comforts of Haran and the affluent society he had grown used to, and go on a journey to a strange land he had never seen before, leave his entire family, and at his age?  But Abraham believed what God had said, so at age 75, Abraham packed up his many opulent things, and with his wife Sarai, bade his entire family goodbye.   Other than several servants, herdsmen, and handmaidens, only Lot, his younger nephew, Lot’s wife and family travelled with him.  Abraham didn’t know that he was beginning a journey that he would never fully see to completion, and that many years later his descendants would also embark on a similar journey to see God’s plan fulfilled.

            Many surprising events were about to unfold as they made their way to Canaan, the land that God had promised to give Abraham and all of his descendants for their own.  Abraham, a wealthy man, wanted for nothing.  His entourage included all the wealth that Abraham had amassed, flocks, rich herds of cattle, tents, silver and gold.  Lot’s entourage similarly matched Abraham’s.  After many days and weeks of journeying, they arrived at Bethel.  But it was clear that they both couldn’t stay together because there wasn’t enough land for both families to spread out because of their great wealth.  Besides, strife and quarrelling between Lot's herdsmen and Abraham's exasperated the situation.  Abraham, not wanting to be in strife with his kin, suggested they go their separate ways.  Abraham gave Lot first choice of where to settle (see Genesis 13:1-9). 

            Imagine Lot surveying the outlaying land.  God has not been talking to Lot as He does to Abraham, at least that we know of.  We’re not even sure that Lot realizes the real purpose of this journey.  Abraham, still walking in blind faith has not yet seen the land that God has promised to him.  But Lot is looking for something else, something tangible, something for today, not for a future unseen as Abraham is.  Lot sees a city similar to the one he has left behind.  Still thinking in worldly terms and of all the comforts and wealth he could acquire, Lot chooses what is most appealing to his natural senses.

      Lot looked up and saw that the whole plain of the Jordan was well watered, like the garden of the Lord, like the land of Egypt, toward Zoar. (This was before the LORD destroyed Sodom and Gomorrah.) So Lot chose for himself the whole plain of the Jordan and set out toward the east. The two men parted company: Abraham lived in the land of Caanan, while Lot lived among the cities of the plain and pitched his tents near Sodom. Now the men of Sodom were wicked and were sinning greatly against the Lord. Genesis 13:10-13 NIV

Lot, in his limited vision, did not see the evil at work behind this panoramic portrait of wealth and great beauty.  Lured by the things of the world, he bases his decision on what he could gain from it.  Like the opulent Titanic, no one could have ever imagined that this city was destined for disaster.

            After the two men part company, they never live together again.  It isn't until Lot departed that God showed Abraham the true vision of all the land that he would inherit.  What a stark contrast to what Lot had seen.

            The Lord said to Abraham after Lot had departed from him, "Lift up your eyes from where you are and look north and south, east and west. All the land that you see I will give to you and your offspring forever. I will make your offspring like the dust of the earth, so that if anyone could count the dust, then your offspring could be counted. Go, walk through the length and breadth of the land, for I am giving it to you.”               Genesis 13:14-18 NIV
            As with any nation that does not follow or honor God, there was a great war amongst the cities where Lot lived.  Lot was taken captive and mightily delivered thanks to Abraham's offer to send his own men to rescue him (see Genesis 14).  There are other significant points to consider in this account; first that it confirms the limited vision of Lot in settling there in the first place.  For although the land appeared to be beautiful and pleasing to the visible eye, it was ruled by wicked men.  History shows that God’s judgement and calamity always follow the deeds of wickedness (see Proverbs 11:5,8,11). 

            We wonder why Lot hadn’t left the city before being taking captive.  In Genesis 19 verse 1, we discover that Lot, rather than living outside the city limits, is now sitting in the gate of Sodom.  Could he have become so affluent that he now holds a position of authority, guarding the gates of Sodom?  We begin to see that in spite of the evil practices of this doomed city, Lot continues to live oblivious to what is about to happen.  If we didn’t know the fate of Sodom and its sister city Gomorrah, we might, similar to Lot, pitch our tents by its strong and appealing gate, oblivious to the impending doom of the city. 

            God again speaks to Abraham and tells him that the outcry against the sins of Sodom and Gomorrah are so great He is considering destroying them completely.  Abraham pleads with God to spare the cities for the sake of the righteous living in them. (Read this interesting account in Genesis 18:16-33).  God is gracious, honors Abraham's request, and agrees to spare the cities even if there are only 10 righteous people found in them.

            The beautiful and opulent cities of Sodom and Gomorrah that Lot has chosen to live in are seething with evil practices, namely perverse sexual practices.  Lot, having gained status and prominence, greets the angels that God sends who have come to warn any righteous of the impending judgement, at the gateway of the city (Genesis 19:1).  We discover the depravity of the inhabitants when the two angels sent by God to warn Lot of the impending destruction, are wanted by the evil men of the city for sexual purposes. Lot does something that startles us.  He has become so much a part of the society around him that he offers his two virgin daughters instead of the angels to these reprobate men (see Genesis 19:5-8).  It is inconceivable he would offer his own daughters to perverse sexual men, and let them do what they will with them.  Even that he should bargain with the wicked men at all is astounding, but this is the extent of Lot's compromise.  Sin breeds selfishness, and it seems that Lot would rather appease these men that God is going to destroy, than stand up to them and protect his own family.
 
            When he does this, these perverse men are not satisfied with the exchange, so in anger they try to charge through the door to do Lot great bodily harm.  Lot still can’t see what is happening and doesn’t recognize the real danger he is in.  He does not fear for his own life, let alone for that of his family.  He no longer recognizes the difference between evil and good.  He lingers at the door.  Do we linger at the door of compromise and bargain with those who would entice us to sin?  Even in Lot's backslidden state, God is gracious and His two messengers intervene to protect Lot and his family.  They literally have to drag Lot away from the enticing evil men, pull him into the house, shut the door, and then physically blind the men so that they can't find Lot's door (see Genesis 19:10-11). 

            The following morning, the angels urge Lot to take his family and hurry out of the city because it is about to be destroyed.  But Lot lingers.  Perhaps he is still in a state of unbelief, not really believing that God is going to destroy the city.  The two strong angels literally grab his hands and his family and drag them out of the city (see Genesis 19:15-16).  Yet, as astounding as it seems, Lot, still hanging on to this life he has known, pleads with the angels not to send him to the mountains for fear of some evil thing happening to him there.  So, Lot asks them to let him go to a smaller city.

            Look, here is a town near enough to run to, and it is small. Let me flee to it -- it is very small, isn't it? Then my life will be spared.  Genesis 19:20 NIV
The amazing truth here is that Lot seems to find security in the things of the world.  He believes if he runs to the little town, he will then be spared, rather than trust that the Lord Himself will save him.  When we abandon ourselves to the world, we develop a false security that it is our place of refuge.  But in the end, only God is our true refuge.   So Lot goes to the little town of Zoar and then the Lord destroys Sodom and Gomorrah with, what is now known as an eruptive earthquake, which covered the city with brimstone and fire.  

            But this is not the end of the story.  Perhaps one of the most noted events is when Lot’s wife did not heed the angel’s urgent warning to not turn back.

            As soon as they [the angels] had brought them out, one of them said, "Flee for your lives! Don't look back, and don't stop anywhere in the plain! Flee to the mountains or you will be swept away!" Genesis 19:17 NIV
Lot, having lost his spiritual headship and authority, was unable to persuade his wife, by his own example, when he pleaded to flee to Zoar, to turn away from Sodom.  His wife disobeyed the angels command, looked back and was instantly turned into a pillar of salt (see Genesis 19:23-26).  It wasn't so much that she disobeyed, but her looking back made a statement that her heart was still wanting the things of this affluent city.  She is preserved and remembered as a standing memorial so that we know the tragic consequences when God's people love the world more than God Himself.

            Finally, with nowhere else to go, Lot ends up retreating to the mountains. He retreats to a cave, for fear has driven him there (see Genesis 19:30).  He has narrowly escaped the wrath of God’s judgement on these cities because of wicked sin, but still he doesn’t recognize the magnitude of evil practices all around him that has stirred the wrath of God.   Sin produces more sinfulness and Lot’s daughters practice what they have been exposed to for too long.  With their betrothed husbands destroyed with the city, and fearing that the entire world has disappeared and all eligible men along with it, they get their father drunk and have sex with him.  They each bear a child out of this incestuous act, whose descendants, the Moabites and Ammonites, bear the marks of this wicked world from which they were spawned.  Later, these two people groups are known for their idolatrous and wicked practices.  Also, they are often a source of conflict for the children of Israel (See Numbers 22-28; Numbers 25:1-9; Numbers 31:16; Amos 2:1-3; Judges 11; Deut. 23:2-6; Ezek. 25:1-7).

            This Biblical account teaches us to choose carefully where we will pitch our tents – will we be drawn to the glitter and grandeur of the world, even if it is cloaked in evil, and destined for ultimate destruction?  Or will we, like Abraham, see a far greater vision by faith and choose to go God’s ways, even when we can’t see the results? 

Stay tuned for Part 3.  



McBurney-Gunhouse, Linda  Overcoming the World; Victory Over Backsliding; Winnipeg Beach; Creative Focus Publishing; 2007, pgs. 23-25.