An interesting thought came to me after I wrote the
previous blog, "How to Handle Change." I looked over my previous blogs and realized
I was writing very similar messages. The
message I've been getting and writing about has to do with being led of the
Spirit and the importance of listening to God.
So I prayed about that and I believe the Lord impressed on me that when
the message He is giving is repeatedly the same, this means that we really
really need to pay attention to it!
Have you ever talked to your spouse or another person and
you knew they were not really listening, but were distracted by something else
or perhaps other thoughts? I am sure we
have all experienced this and have done this ourselves, perhaps innocently
enough, but if we repeatedly do not listen or take to heart what a loved one or
friend is saying, we won't have much of a relationship with them, will we? And sometimes chaos ensues when we have not
been paying attention, especially if we have made plans that are about to
unfold, and we have failed to tell our spouse!
When God speaks to us, there is always a very good reason, and if He is
repeating the same thing over and over again, then we better start paying
attention!
What happens when the Lord is trying to get a message
across to us and we're simply not hearing, or listening or responding? Usually it is a crisis, something very
dramatic or traumatic, or something that causes us to stop what we're doing. We may feel like we are backed into a corner
and we have no other choice but to finally quiet ourselves down and take the
time to pray AND listen AND respond.
This has definitely happened to me more than once when God was trying to
get a message across to me. In fact, the
first time I was a teenager and I had
turned so far away from God that I was sure my life was over. And in a sense, it was. I had really come to
an abrupt end of myself and my ungodly lifestyle of living according to my own
desires, or according to the "flesh," as the Bible calls it.
Have you ever heard of testimonies of people who seemed
the least likely to turn to God, or had reached their end and then had a
miraculous turn-around that set them on the right path with God? The Bible is filled with such examples. When God confronts us, it changes us forever
and we never want to go back to the life we once had. But this always comes at a great cost – the
cost is giving up our "self" life and submitting ourselves to Him for
His purposes and plans.
The question is, do we have to reach an end to ourselves
before God can get ahold of us? When I
was researching all those many years for the book on backsliding that I wrote
and published, one of the verses that kept coming to mind is the following:
Pro 14:14 The
backslider in heart shall be filled with his own ways: and a good man shall be
satisfied from himself.
Backsliding is turning away from the Lord, and what the
verse showed me is that when we choose our own way, we actually become enslaved
by the constant desires of the "flesh." The Apostle Paul talks about this at length
in the book of Romans. Only the Lord can
set us free from our own selfish motives and our sinful desires, and bring us
to an end of the demanding and futile self-life.
Then the Bible talks about being stiff-necked and in the
same verses it talks about hardening our own heart.
Pro 29:1 He,
that being often reproved hardeneth his neck, shall suddenly be destroyed, and
that without remedy.
What happens when we become hardened to the things of
God? When Christians especially are not
heeding the call and messages from God to honor Him and His Word and repent,
iniquity will take over, and Satan has a heyday. This doesn't happen overnight either. It is often a slow and gradual process, as
one by one, we compromise, excuse our sin, let things slip, and gradually the
moral ground beneath our feet collapses and we fall. This is a very serious matter that affects
not only us, but whole families, societies and nations!
The Old Testament is filled such examples, especially
pertaining to the children of Israel and Judah in particular. If we take a look at Jeremiah, God uses the
prophet Jeremiah to plead for His people to turn from their backsliding ways
and return to Him, but they refuse to listen!
Jer 2:19 Thine own wickedness shall
correct thee, and thy backslidings shall reprove thee: know therefore and see
that it is an evil thing and bitter, that thou hast forsaken the LORD thy God,
and that my fear is not in thee, saith the Lord GOD of hosts.
Each time the children of Israel backslid and turned away
from God (most notably they had gotten into idolatry and began worshipping
pagan gods and followed their ways), they would be taken captive by their enemies. Then they would find themselves in such a
mess that they would cry out to God to deliver them, and He would out of His
immense love and faithfulness to them, but astonishingly, their hearts did not
change! They wanted to go back to the
pagan ways.
How does this relate to us today? God is looking for us to be faithful to Him
and put Him first in our lives. He is
looking for empty vessels (empty of self) that He can use to show others how
loving and gracious He alone is! He has
set us apart, like He did with the children of Israel, and He wants our
complete devotion to Him. If we are too
distracted by our own selves or the things of this world, we will not be paying
attention to Him, or worshipping Him in a way that He deserves and that is
honoring to Him.
In my last blog, "How to Handle Change," I
talked about the many losses and trials me and my husband have been
experiencing. There have been many more
losses I never even mentioned. For me, God
has set me on a definite path to follow Him and it has not always been an easy
road. Where I wanted a life of ease, God
led me down a difficult path fraught with uncertainty and disappointment where
I had to trust in Him. Of course, He's
always brought me through and my life is always better because of the
difficulties, although I can't see it at the time.
Many years ago, when I was still single and feeling
lonely, watching all my friends get married and move on in their lives, I
wondered what my future held as year after year I was met with so much
disappointment. I wanted to write, but
had to support myself with work that wasn't fulfilling; I wanted to be married,
but the right one didn't come along. My
dreams and desires were set aside time and again because I had to wait. During that long waiting period, God was
working on my heart and refining me, then just before He opened the doors of my
heart's desires, He challenged me to see if I would be faithful to Him even if
He never opened the doors to fulfill my heart's desires. It was a most sobering experience. While others may have thought that since I
was young I should be out having a good time, God was working out the deeper,
meaningful things of my heart so that He could later use me and my writing for
His purposes. During that time, when I
was questioning why things weren't working out for me, I read the
following:
2Co 7:10 For
godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of: but the
sorrow of the world worketh death.
Jas 4:9 Be
afflicted, and mourn, and weep: let your laughter be turned to mourning, and
your joy to heaviness.Jas 4:10 Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord,
and he shall lift you up.
I certainly had sorrow in my life, and things were pretty
serious, hardly the picture of a care-free young woman enjoying a husband,
family and career of my dreams! I came
to realize that the mourning and the sorrow were necessary to end the life of
self that I too often gave preference to and didn't even realize it! Were my dreams and my heart's desires greater
than my desire to love and serve the Lord?
That was the final test before He opened the door and granted me the
desires of my heart. Like Abraham being
asked to sacrifice his long awaited son, I had to lay down my heart's desires
and be proven that the Lord would always mean more to me than anything else in
this life! This is a life-long lesson
since as humans, we fail, and we can't trust our own heart when it comes to the
things of God! Only God knows, so He
will test us and refine us and make us more like Him.
Perhaps today you find yourself in a similar situation as
mine, and you can't understand why things aren't working out the way you hoped
and planned. Or perhaps you are in more
serious circumstances and you are up against a wall, not knowing how to get out
of your situation. Seriously, now it is
time to pray and really listen to what the Lord wants to say to you or teach
you through it all. And if you are a
child of God, and you really want to serve Him, then He will continue working
with you bringing you to an end of the self-life so that you can be made better
and find true meaning and purpose in your spiritual life.
Job 23:10 But he knoweth the way that I take: when he
hath tried me, I shall come forth as gold.